Saturday, February 27, 2016

BACK TO WINTER

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Saturday, February 13, 2016

KOLD

getting charliehorse behind left knee.  the cramping occurs at night...freaking me out.

Friday, February 5, 2016

STEPH


RULES: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, and/or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

(To do this, go to "notes" under applications on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people including me(in the upper right hand corner of the app), select your privacy setting, then click publish.)

ughhhh here it goes- 8 miles to follow

1. i have always wished i was more intellegent and i'm extremely self concious about my intellegence or lack thereof and my admiration for smart people is equal if not more to my admiration for even the most artistically talented people in this world. 

2. although i am a singer i do not listen to any music in the car(even when i'm not driving the red toyota otherwise known as "the sauna") and i rarely listen to music at home if i'm just hanging out unless i'm really in the mood. i actually prefer the sound of tv or talk radio-npr is my station of choice- oh yeah and i prefer t.v. to music at the gym when i run too

3.salt and sugar are my worst enemies and my best friends. right now i'm eating chocolate and salt and vinegar chips....to many a digusting combination. to me-dinner and dessert.

4. yes, i have issues with food, weight and excersise. LOve how i feel after a long run and areobics and weight training- i can be at the gym for 3-4 hours without realizing it. HATE how i feel the next day after eating candy at night. and literally almost NOTHING feels as good to me as being skinny feels-sad but true-with one exception-performing

5.my niece and nephew are two people in this world that can change my mood into positivity just by their presence

6.i'm not great at spelling

7. i think i'm viewed as nice and i think people think i'm pretty predictable, though i think my sisters know the "real" me whatever that means...i can be kind of judgemental and sneaky(jen and lissa are probablly reading this and saying that's an understatement)

8.when i was little i used to tear open the offering envelopes at church and write letters to the priests on them, saying how much i admired them and jesus and that i wanted their blessing

9.i believe in love

10.i am much more materialistic than people assume or would assume based on how i present myself...i strive to be more spiritual than i am

11. i live in a world of extremes...one or the other no inbetweens. i used to be hard on myself about this because i thought i would be more balanced by being a more moderate person. now i just except it's how i am.very happy, very sad, i'm super disorganized or super organized, super fit or not at the gym for weeks etc etc etc

12.i collect mothers. but my real mom is truly the best

13.i was a daddy's girl growing up, my dad and i used to have breakfast everyday before kindergarten while my mom was at work and my sister went to school earlier than i did. i think the day i finished 10 silver dollar pancakes he was just as proud of me as he was when he saw me in miss saigon.

14.i want to be super famous

15.when i was little i loved babies...just totally loved them. now i love them but i've become a bit afraid of them and not very comfortable...maybe its because they seem like some sort of reality that is looming around the corner-but i just noticed that i used the word "looming" - guess i'm still not ready

16. i am terrified of death. ever since john died, and many others in my life, i have frequent death anxiety attacks. mostly at night. i wake up suddenly and have to stand up and tell myself i'm alive and that i exsist. it is really scary when it happens. 

17. i am horrible at keeping in touch and very ashamed of this. trying to work on it. sorry if i offend. 

18.i laugh the hardest with my family. especially my sisters. i also eat the most when i'm with them. especially the tall blonde one. though my older sister has a great snack cupboard that i raid frequently.

19.i absolutely love to perform and i love the process of a live show...nothing is as fufilling, exhilarating and intimidating all at the same time-... btw right now i'm regretting the chocolate and salt and vinegar chips. i still haven't gone to the gym and now i gotta deal with this awful bloat-just the mere fact that my sisters are reading that statement makes me laugh out loud

20.i love popcorn

21.i wanted to be a psycologist before i wanted to be an actress or singer. i think i may go back to school for this someday. i would also like to get my aerobics instruction certification

22.i have NO tolerance for self centered ignorant people and i can be very mean when i am forced to deal with people like that which takes people by surprise, once i punched someone in the face for something he said...sad but true-he was very surprised

23.i am often treated more like a girl than a woman, probablly because of my size and how i present myself at times. it can be beneficial and/or irritating.

24. I LOVE what i do for a living ups downs and all...i am not afraid to work hard and do whatever it takes to get what i need or want...especially for my career. in matters of the heart...well i guess i'm not as clear in that area

25.happiness is a choice. today i'm in manila...and i am happy, yesterday too but that was the past and who cares about that...tomorrow who knows maybe finally #14 and #9 will combine into a happy marriage and i can buy my mom a new house and change the world(in that order)